Woke up in the morning... feeling something blocking my sight... then i remembered last night i cried myself to sleep... looking out the window...it's gloomy and windy.... Tried to forget what had happened... i switched on my laptop..checking mail... and scrabble...then..off to shower... ?He called... speaking like nothing has happened... this fact made me feel even worse... i shed my tears...
The sky starting to rain... and this is the first time i see lightning and thunder in Uk although lots of times i see rain..but not thunder and lightning... Gloomy sky...gloomy me.. *tears drop* Chatting with my dearest jo... i was strong throughout the conversation... until she told me something...burst into tears.. tears just automatically roll down to my cheeks... i hate the fact 'guys always like tat' but wth? like...'everyone is doing that... tak kan i dont do the same too' wth is this? then where are those 'i must do something for her... i must do something to prove?' where the hell does all these gone to? have you ever thought of 'i must do something for her' instead of 'everyone is doing the same.. so you want to do the same thing also'?
i love to hide myself in the shower when im down... let the water flow away my tears... i love to cry in the rain... cause my tears will be gone along with the rain drops... whenever i want to stop my tears... i have a bad habit... to bite... myself... im so like 'the ants are crawling all over my flesh' now... i feel like..want to tear myself down... =( oh gosh... what had happened to me..?
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oh jet jet :( I feel your sadness through ur blog. what happened this time? Talk later online k? Love u lots and stop biting urself...!
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