happy birthday? or regretful birthday?

有是真的觉得自己很失败..

Last year, because of my childish, i made my birthday full of tears.. to learn from the past, i have grown up and tried not to be childish.. but at the end.. i found out that im as childish as last year.. like i have never grown up..?

All i wanted is to enjoy myself in this special day of mine.. and i really (i swear) i didnt expect for anything.. as i know he is working.. so i have decided to give myself a little treat... to go out and get myself lunch and went to buy myself cakes..and i never knew that with what i have done.. it hurts him..for not doing anything (although i knew that he wanted to) but i really never expected that.. know what? hurting him equals to hurting me..

when i bought the cake.. i had a feeling that it's going to be bad.. but in my heart, i just dont want to have another birthday without cake to cut.. i guess this is call selfish.. and in the end..伤了人。。更伤了自己。。how stupid can i be? no?

another year with tears on my birthday.. and this year.. is different.. because i felt so bad.. so much worse than sad.. but.. really.. heart broken... i knew he felt heart pain too... but to me.. hurting him.. i felt like 10000times hurting myself.. i dont know how to describe my feelings.. it's just.. so f*cked up

有时候我觉得女人真的很恐怖，她可以全心全意的爱一个人，可是也可以全心全以的伤害一个人。当爱变成恨了，可以做出些伤天害理的事情。为了报复。想尽办法的伤害他而得到快乐。难道这都不会上还她们自己吗？ 在我自己的立场，是，可能我会恨一个人。可是这就是过去，要成长，不对吗？ 拿得起就要放得下!这是一句很有道理的话。

女人的心有时真的很难明白，连我自己也不明白我自己。为什么好好的一天竟然被我自己毁了呢？ 我真的是个白痴。大白痴！有时我真的觉得自己太笨了。 他不说我真的不知道发生什么事了。可是，每一次到他对我说的时候都是太迟了的时候，那个时候，就是伤害了他的时候。为什么我可以这样的迟钝呢？为什么每一次都是我自己伤了他？我的心真的很痛很痛。我每一次都会想为什么我自己会那么笨。真的真的很笨很笨。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Off Day

Have been working whole last week and I felt happy with it because this is what I always wanted .. Work = money.. i want money..money money money.. eheheheh =D I hope this last till this September, so that I can save up money .. All I've got now only allow me to use a month.. like no extra.. rental and billings.. as well as groceries.. phhiew... but im happy.. I dont know why.. I just feel happy..


It has been snowing badly last week.. I love snow.. they just so beautiful... but again.. i hate to drive when it snows.. >.<


Today is my offday... so both of us decided to go to The Bridges, 'cause i need to get my samsung repaired.. *P.S I love my samsung so much... * and I will see her this coming saturday, sent her to hospital for treatment .. =D hehehe.. i hope she is doing fine... and happy that we actually budget they'll charge me 30 quids.. =) but they only charge 20 quids..which i feel satisfy with the costing.. =D and i super enjoy today... gai-gai with baby..which i felt so in love / loved.. =D he actually accompany me to go into the stores which there were a lot of ladies ..and i mean A LOT! *Aww... i love you baby* waited me to try on the outfits...and stuff.. =) oh.. there are lots of lots of lots of sales!! dang it.. =( i found one sweater which i love so much and it's 20 quid after discount..and now they are doing 50 % more...which means i can got it for 10 quid!!! WTH!! but the size left was too big for me.. =( felt disappointed that there are lots of sales but i couldnt get anything... but anyway.. i felt happy on the other side... cause at least baby accompany me to go into the stores and then waited me for my trying session..


highlight of the day---when we both decided to leave the mall, we decided to have starbucks..as it has been months since we last have it.. =) yay! Caramel Macchiato~~ yummy..and baby's having his favourite Chocolate Cream Frappucino? i hope i didnt spelt it wrongly.. and oh ya oh ya! they actually have skimmed milk and no sugar syrup for the caramel macchiato now! and it's only 102 calories.. oh yes! =D love it loads.... *big big smile

Feel so hungry right now... didnt eat for the whole day already... =) boiling carrot soup in the kitchen now.. ehehe... and yes.. i have to stop right now.. =D Im going to cook for baby... as he's concentrating on his revision... final is coming this wednesday.. I wish him all the best and I hope he's doing fine.. =D

*off*

The first day of 2010 ...01.01.10

Tired tired tired... Went for Karaoke last night and guess what time did we arrive at home? it's around 4.30am... gawd... i was soooooooooooooooooo tired... as last night's function was really...really big... Had some beer at the karaoke session, not much.. but enough to make me fell asleep fast.. After removed the make-up and got myself changed up..manage to go to bed at 5-ish... and i woke up an hour later... took my shower...and drove to work... My eyes barely can open up... but i have to stay alert.. as it's snowing badly... luckily there werent a lot of vehicles in the morning hours.. maybe it's a holiday today and it's snowing as well as it's EARLY! hehe... the breakfast service was............................................EXHAUSTED! which normally we dont see ppl come in at 9.30 am and the breakfast ends at 10am... but today's breakfast serves till 12pm! can you see how BIG was the function at new year's eve? I was really really sleepy when i arrived at the hotel... but once the service started... i dont have the time to even feel sleepy.. ahahaha... im like..so multi-tasking... i cleared the tables, i set up the tables, refilling the coffee, tea pots and coffee pots.. refilling the plates... i manage the hot plates buffet (which i have to run back and forth from the restaurant to the kitchen and from the kitchen to the restaurant .. to refill the food...) and i dont know why.. Fried eggs and bacons are today's highlight... ahaha...they can me gone..just in seconds..and i have to run back to the kitchen to shout for.. 'fried eggs!! bacons!!!' =) the whole session.... EXAUSTING *phiew... It keeps snowing when i arrived at the hotel till i finish my shift.. and the snow was really really thick... the moment i stepped out from the car this morning... i felt icy feet... which my feet are covered with snow.. ahaha... i walked like a hippo... to balance myself.. =) but i felt cute though.. ahahahaha.. Imagine when I walked out from the exit to my car after my morning shift.. how thick was the snow? yes... there was once.. i nearly fall down... due to i dont know what is underneath the snow... the car was covered with snow.. so i have to swipe them off the screen and the whole car.. i cant feel my fingers after removing all the snow.... and both of my palms looked purple-ish... *ouch* but i do enjoy snowing this morning... =) while i was waiting for the engine to heat up... i made a tiny snowman... which... i think he looks sad.. i dont know why... aahahaha... but i managed to find a newspaper underneath the snow.. i pulled it out and then made a smile to him... but...still.. his eyes=( sorry little snowman.... i promise i will make you happy next time... =)

Had a safe journey home... my brunch was ready when i arrived at home.. =) baby cooked us meal... *love him heaps* after our brunch... we watched a movie and then oi oi... i woke up 4 hours later... still i felt so tired and sleepy now... but yeah... 要玩就要付出代价, 吃得咸鱼抵得渴meaning to say.. if i want to 'play' (enjoy--party, drinking, etc) i have to 'pay' , knowing that i have to work for morning shift, but still i want to go for karaoke, and i knew that it would be ending late.. i have to go for my morning shift, as this is how the working life is... this is call responsibility.. i dont want to make myself regret... =)

So.. it's the first day of 2010... what's the plan? ahahaha... i dont know..honestly... well, i wish...

1. My friends and family stay healthy always..

2. Visit my dearies during CNY in Manchester

3. Finish my placement smoothly...

4. Have a wonderful final year back in Portsmouth..

5. Earn lots of money..

6. Go home for my brother's wedding.. =)

7. My sister comes to look for me as soon as possible..

*to be continue*

will upload some pictures when i transfer the photoes from camera to the laptop =)

The last day of 2009

It's 31.12.2009 today.. which means 2009 has comes to the end... I wish that 2010 is a better year..although 2009 is not treating me bad.. =) hehe...

Here, I have to officially announce that it is a confirm that I won't be able to go back for Chinese New Year in 2010.. which I felt sad and down... Baby will be leaving for 2 months.. and I will be alone... =( but I am planning to visit my dearest in Manchester so that I won't feel too lonely...at least there is somebody there for me.. =) arghh...Valentine's Day is on the first day of Chinese New Year.. I actually quite eager to know what will happen on that day, or how will it be like.. but sad to know that i couldnt experience it... sigh.. =( *deep sigh* =..( I have missed 2 chinese new years in a row.. hmm... not going back is not my first choice.. but i have to let this choice comes first... also.. am not heading back for summer holiday too.. =( =( =( awaiting for my brother to let me know his wedding date.. i definitely want to go home for this..

Worked for the breakfast shift and came home.. i felt tired.. but i cant really fall asleep now.. (to get some rest) an hour later.. i have to get ready to work again for the night shift... function.. and oh no.. tonight is a big big function! walked into the function hall and shocked me! lots of lots of tables.. i had the feeling already when i look at the rota, i saw lots of ppl working tonight..lol... but cannot be deny that the decoration is so grand and gorgeous.. yeah.. it should be so grand... cause to welcome 2010.. =) hehehe... i wonder how would i... we... welcome 2010? =) oh yeah.. when i got home from work just now.. i saw a card.. with a me-to-you chocolate.. =) i smiled... thank you baby for brighten up my day.. =D love you heaps!

It says :

We've seen each other grumpy,

and we've seen each other glad.

We've seen some good behaviour

(and of course, we've seen some bad!)

You've even seen my wobbly bits

but still adore me more each day.

I've seen you with a runny nose, and love you anyway!

You;ve seen me when I'm slobbing out

(and still think that I;m cute)

I;ve seen you dressed up to the nines

and in your birthday suit!

We;ve seen the worst, we've seen the best -

and like we always knew...

No matter what life's ups and downs, we'll see each other through!

Happy Anniversary !

P/S --- I really love this card a lot, it reflects a lot of us =) *memories... *

love

York 28.12.2009

Baby and I missed the Boxing Day sales, but still, we are still be able to catch up with the sales although we might able to get more discount during boxing day.. Dont want to make ourselves regret, we decided to go to York before the sales end =)

We drove almost 2 and a half hour before arriving at our destination.. Grabbed 2 sandwiches at a service station while we were on our way to York.. But we both only manage to finish half of the sandwich and ate the other half while we were on our way home =D I do enjoy shopping with baby.. and it has been a long long time that i didnt go to shop.. like really shopping... =D nothing much to say.. so let pictures tell you the rest of the story

York Designer Outlet

Happy Trip

Chirstmas/Anniversary Gift for Baby

My anniversary/Chirstmas Gift from him

Tired but happy me

SS in front of my mirror

Baby's Boots

My new sweater

Body shop =)

Baby's new tees

Snacks =)

random, but still, this is how im feeling now

很多事情，事物，甚之人。。在每一分，每一秒，每一刻都在转变着。你从前认识的她或他，已不再是从前的他和她。世界上为什么有那么多我们自己都搞不懂的事情呢？ 当你开始觉得你身边的人没再找你了。。你。。是否会想起他／她？ 想想他／她。。为什么不想在联络你了？当然，在你自己觉得身边的人变了前，先想想自己吧。。

25.12.2009 Christmas Day

I've just finished my work .. A tiring day I must say... Started my work at 12pm to 4pm today.. most of them finished at 3pm and gone home.. and there were lots of plates to polish... There was another girl whom having the same shift as I do but then I dont know where did she go when we both knew that there were lots of crockeries and cutleries to polish.. Seeing the piles of plates stacking at the pantry makes me feel sick..ahaha.. and B, the guy whom do all the washing... I feel so sour everytime I see him, cause there is always a lot of things left for him to wash...It's 4pm and I did not leave him behind as there are still a lot of dishes left to polish and there's no more space for B to put the not-clean-and-soon-to-be-wash-cutleries, I stayed for another half an hour to polish half of the dishes and put then into the function room... gosh... the function room is such a mess... crockeries were everywhere.. i mean, not arranged nicely like previously... once you see the side plates stacked on top of the dessert plates... then you will see the dessert plates on top of the soup plates...the saucers mixed with the side plates... argghhh!!! sigh... i just categorize them back to where they were belong to... and then i decided to leave .. i hope all the half spaces that i have left for B is enough for him to put the washed-and-not-polish cutleries and crockeries...

Am now waiting for dinner at friend's house... yay! turkey for our christmas dinner... =D I hope it tastes nice.. =D eehehe

*waiting in hunger* ( Cause i didnt eat anything the whole day) *to be continue after dinner*

Am back from friend's place after Christmas dinner.. aw... we had steamboat and also turkey for dinner.. =D great meal... was so full just now =D satisfied after whole day of hunger..ehehe .. rest for a while then towards the end... we started our prezzie exchanged.. had fun with it though.. =) me and baby were the lucky couple; also there is another guy got two prezzies while the others got one =D ehehe... for me, i had a message mate but it's a special one.. it's a fan thingy and i can programme my short message into it, when i switch on the fan, the message will appear.. aww... i love it... the second prezzie that i got is a small bottle limited edition liqueur =D i am quite happy with the presents that i've got... for baby... the first prezzie that he got was a mug =) a nice mug, which i love a lot also... second prezzie ..ahahahaha... a box of durex condom... ahahahaha.... had so much fun.. =D

Nevertheless, thanks Sky for providing us a place for our Christmas Party.. prepared us the steamboat and also the clearing.. appreciate it...

Well, I always hoping for a white christmas... Yes, it's white everywhere... but without snow.. i felt like it's only 'half-white-christmas' for me... was quite disappointed and i keep looking out the window .. hoping to see snow flakes... when me and baby were on our way home.. i saw a flake... thinking that it might not the snow... but then i saw few more falling... IT'S SNOWING! =D yay yay yay!!! although it just last for minutes but i am so very super satisfy... =D my first white christmas it is... in year 2009 ... with the one i love.. =D wanted to take picture but then we didnt manage to cause we're driving... but the memory lock inside my heart... =D

It's 1.31am here... Christmas for 2009 has gone but boxing day is here!!!! know what? It's TIME FOR SHOPPING!!! ahahahahaha.. yay yay ! but i have to work.. and yes.. it's time for me to sleep now... have to get up at 5am to prepare and then to work... will have to work for morning and night shift.. hehe.. well... money is the thing that i need the most right now... so yeah... there are still a lot of boxing day for me to shop.. =D am now fighting for my own future.. yes!

Last but not least... HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! MUAHS

hoping for a white christmas

It's Christmas eve today.. snowed in the middle of the night... =) so beautiful when i see snow..big snow... not tiny little bit of snow =) hehe... i dont know how to describe that i really love snow... it's just so romantic and beautiful =D I wish tomorrow will be the same too.. and of course.. i wish to have a white christmas... cause it barely snow in December... but this year..it snows!! =D let's keep my fingers crossed.. if it snow tomorrow.. it'll be my very first christmas with baby... and yes..white christmas.. hehe =D yay yay yay! excited..

16.12.2009

Went to work by metro last night at 6pm, arrived at the hotel at around 7.10pm and got myself ready.. Still feeling unwell but a lot better than the previous day... service started from 8pm.. so we just be prepared for the starter... A busy night...After we have done with our serving, we went back to the kitchen to do the polishing, *phiew* a lot of polish...the crockeries and the cutleries... but the lucky thing is, there were a lot of us in the service =) While I was doing my part, my manager asked me to meet her, so I went to see her... she asked me to work for 7am to 3pm today cause a team member is sick i think... so i said yes... =) cause this is what i want though..

When the clock striked at 10.30pm sharp, ahaha...i went to sign my tention cause i dont want to miss the metro... i quickly change and then off I left the hotel.... when i was fast-walking towards the airport (where the metro station is) i heard a loud voice shouting ,'baby!' I was shocked and thought I might heard wrongly, but I looked around, and I saw a cute red car ahead... and someone waving at me... =) my baby it is... ehehe.... he said ,'surprise!' =) ahaha..cute! never thought of he came to give me surprise as he worked from 5pm to 9pm.. When I got into the car, he said ,'special delivery to you,' =) and I saw a pizza in front of me.. =D ehehe... *smile and smooches to him* love him loads...

Arrived home at around 11.20pm... got myself changed and removed my make up... pick a movie to watch and off to bed at 1.15am... woke up at 5am to get my shower, make up and dress up... off to work again.. enjoying my drive this morning as there wasnt any traffic jam .. arrived half an hour before my shift starts... so i sat in the car, sms with baby for a while and listening to the music for like 20 minutes before i get down from the car.. =) ehehee... put my stuffs into the locker and then off to the breakfast service... busy morning... but relaxing though...ehehe... dont know why..although there were lots of ppl to serve today, but i feel relax, but im tired... so tired...

So after the breaky, we then cleared all the stuff and then got ready for the lunch in the function room...christmas lunch for the elderly... Again, after the service... and clearing... they started to dance... I really enjoyed myself so much when I watched them dancing... it's just so beautiful and lovely... =) and I really wish that one day I could dance with the one I love... I'm serious.. I really do...

Now, I am home.. blogging here... When I was walking up the stairs just now.. baby opened the room door and waited for me.. =) I am happy to see him... Love his pampered so much... but he left to work already... will see him at night when he is done with his work later... wish he has a nice day out there.. Miss him much...

shocking morning

I heard foot steps from the stairs which are approaching to my room in the morning, and the next thing I heard was door knocks and someone opened the door.. had a feeling like the 'sou wong' in the Hong Kong drama series LOL.. Standing in front of us was an UK Border Agent.. Explaining to us that they are here for investigation.. 'they' means there isn't just him alone... The officer asked us to get our passport and go downstairs.. Was really shocked... Imagine,when you are still on the bed, and suddenly an officer came into your room and asked you to get your passport, meet them up downstairs.. All that appeared in my mind was ,'what's going on?' but it looks so excited to me too...ehehehe... i dont know why and what makes me so excited.. maybe I havent experienced one in Portsmouth back then? When we were putting on some clothing (baby was topless with his boxer when he went to bed last night and i with tshirt and undie), the officers waited us outside our room, watching us (well I guess they dont want us to hide something or whatsoever-like, we really cant do anything except to only put on our clothing)

When me and baby walked downstairs, we saw David, Sam and Chris already sitting on the bed (in one of the rooms in the house) and there are 7 officers altogether... oh wow..! another shocked early in the morning.. presenting our passport, they just wanted to make sure we have visa.. They are looking for a lady name Miss X, I think it's not really convenient for me to expose in the public? As I dont know what had really happened... Maybe the Uk Border couldnt find the record of the entry/leave of the lady? Is she missing? I really dont know...Baby told the officer that she has already moved out before we moved into this house. After our Visa information has been taken, the officer then said, 'Alright, thank you all, you can go back to your room now,' I was like.. 'Is that it?' came into the house, just to ask for our passport for investigation and information about Miss X? hmm...

Oh well, I guess this is possible also for the officers to check on us, as we are foreigners... especially the case that happened last year in Newcastle.. it makes the officers even more caution.. Read the news from the internet regarding to a murder case in Newcastle.. Three Chinese brutally mudered a couple in Newcastle... The summary of the murder ---> The Bf, whom happened to be doing some illegal business (internet betting scams and the arrangement of false and fraudulant documentation such as travelling visas and professional qualifications), have been brutally murdered and coincidentally, the gf came home from work; when the murderer saw her, they killed her too... it has to believe that the bf has taken all the money which all (including the murderer) 'earned', and the murderer revenged on him... they even drown the pet cat into the sink bowl.. =(

This is a very scary news... well..for more information, you can checked online...

I have been sick for a few days, and I really wish that I could get well soon.. =( I dont want to work in this condition.. The important thing is, I dont want people to get infected.. sigh.... =(

It has been like almost three weeks since I start working... I am glad that I have found a job in the hotel, and I am trying my very best to get extra hours for myself, but =( I cant unfortunately... I couldnt even get a 20 hours shift per week.. =( oh God... please help me.. =( I really wish that I could work more and earn more.. so that I could get my flight ticket.. =( I have missed the Chinese New Year this year and I dont want to miss another Chinese New Year; which the reunion dinner will be held at my house.. siblings are all back except for me... I really wish I could spend my time with them... It's been a while that we have not been spending time together... Family is going to Beijing this coming Sunday except for me... Wish the next vacation, we will be all going together... a complete family vacation...

*waiting*

*keeping my fingers crossed hard*

Confession from work

Well, it has been almost 2 weeks since I started with my work. From Day 1 to day 2 to day 3, i really wanted to post about my feeling about my first day of work, but due to my laziness or whatsoever, i postpone to second day or work and to the third day.. and now.. it's been nearly 2 weeks.. I have decided to post an entry about my feeling from work... which I experienced yesterday and night..

My shift was actually 12pm to 4pm in function. Quite happy when I was in the function .. seeing the elderly couples dancing in the ballroom.. waltz, tango, quick step, i felt envy and lovely.. I really love to see old couples dance together... I felt so loved.. i dont know how to describe my feeling, but i had this feeling since i started to learn my ballroom dancing few years back.. When I was doing the polish, my manager came and asked me to work in the restaurant at night, I agreed. After I have left my work at 4.30pm, I went to the starbucks which is in the airport for a drink.. --caramel macchiato.. my long time no drink beverage =)

After I have settled down with my magazine and beverage, I received a text message from my manager informed me that I can go home if I want 'cause they aren't so busy for dinner and again she said it's up to me whether I want to return for work 'cause she doesnt want me to wait for so long then when i return i found out that it's not busy. But I said I will be back for work (as I have already bought myself a drink and magazines to kill the time). Have a little talk with baby when I was in starbucks and continue with my magazine..

When I was on my way back to the hotel, my manager called me to ask if I am returning 'cause they are very busy, so yeah, I told her that I am on the way back. After I have arrived at the hotel, left all my belongings at the locker, I then walked to the restaurant, I saw my manager .. she said ,'you dont want to know what's happening out there' lol...in other words, there are a lot of guests out there. I felt excited as this is the first time I can finally learn something like taking order and stuff... but also I felt afraid too, cause I know it's very very busy and I dont want to cause any troubles.

I felt so glad that Austin (a supervisor whom is also a Taiwanese) taught me things from the restaurant in the previous week, else I would not know what to do. When I first stepped my feet into the restaurant last night, I felt the disaster... Nobody is there for me to ask what should I do, nobody brief us..no nothing, I was on my own .. like... ok... I sat down the waiting guests but the funny thing is... I CANT FIND THE MENU! they are all lost.. I DONT KNOW WHERE THEY GONE... all I have is one menu... what the hell? im glad that the guests dont mind to share the menu. After I have took their order, me then placed the order to the kitchen and also bar...

My manager was in charge of the bar because there is no staff in the bar... so yes, she's in the bar, me and the other guy in the restaurant.

When I return to bar to get what I have ordered, my manager asked me where is the bill pad, I said it's on the board (as what I have been told previously) then she asked me to bring to her, ok.. After I have brought it for her, she asked me to leave on the counter.. Seeing that she has lots of guests waiting for drinks, I decided to come back later on for the beverage. Here come my guest whom order the beer from me (which I just left the bill on the counter), I explained that we have a really busy night and I said I will bring it to him soon, he insist to go to the bar (expecting that I dont understand that he WANTS it immediately or expecting that I dont understand his words). When my manager saw him, she asked him to wait at his seat as I will bring it to him soon. He then smiled to me. pfft!

The night went on, two guests waiting at the entrance waiting to be seated, which they have already has a reservation... Seeing all the tables that havent been cleared and set back, me then suggest them to go for a drink at the bar. they then claimed that the previous waiter told them they same thing and they just did that (means that they came from the bar---had their drink). I apologized and asked them to wait for another 5 minutes while I quickly cleared the table and set back up. Escort them to their seats and took their order... funny thing is... one of the guests said he wants a salad for started (which is not in the menu) then I asked, 'a fruit salad?' he nodded. and I placed the order, when the fruit salad is ready, I took out to him and he asked, 'what is this?' I respond ,'a fruit salad?' he raised his voice a little, 'I WANT A VEGETABLE SALAD, pfft!' oh well, guest is always right...I apologize then back to the kitchen.... ARGH!!!!! !@#@#$@#*%$^&#$*%@#

*DEEP SIGH*

long night...long night... time flew as the night was really really busy, Guests started to leave... and I started to cleared up and set back the table...yes... only me.. =( There left 4 tables, make things easier, i describe them as table 1, 6, 9 and 14. When I was clearing the tables, I already realised that table 9 hasnt got his food yet... but he's very patient, I keep on thinking whether he is waiting for his food or he's just sitting there, enjoying his drink and do some reading... When I almost done setting back all the tables, he's still there, I then decided to approach him and asked, ' excuse me sir, Are you waiting to be served?' he answered, 'Yes, I am waiting for my scottish salmon which The server said it will be served in 20 minutes and now it's more than 40 minutes' I then apologize (okay, why do i always have to apologize on behave of someone's mistake? but yea, i know, in a hotel industry I have to) Head to the kitchen, thinking to ask the chef whether the order for table 9 is ready, to my surprised, there is no one in the kitchen and I wonder where the chef gone... toilet? cigarette? I dont know... Waited for a while and he's back... He then prepared the main course for me... and I served the guest in table 9.

Done setting up the tables. The guest from table 6 waved at me... I approached them and they said they have finished their main course for SOOOOOO long and nobody clear for them... Again, I APOLOGIZE and cleared for them... and asked if they need anything else... and they said ,'no we dont need anything else, just bring over the sweet' I was like... sweet? (only one word appeared in my mind... dessert?) not so confirm, I then asked my seniors (which they are sitting at the till chattin with each other----yes, not helping me to set up the table although they have nothing to do) I said, 'the guests from table 6 want their sweet...' expecting that they know what they want but they answered ,'sweet? what sweet? mint? or candy?' WTH... I then walked back all the way up to the guests and asked them whether they want some candies or mint! the guest respond 'no no no, ask the guy from the till to come over, he took the order from us,'... I felt so so so tired, but i have to walked back to the till and ask him to go over.................. and the conclusion that I came up for myself, they are having a different menu from the other guests and sweet means dessert...

*tired*

although today is my off day, but when I refresh what had happened last night, I felt so tired, again. =) hee hee..

Felt like I am being bullied.. I mean.. I dont know.. like ... yes...although i dont mind doing so many things, I just dont like that when somebody is free, they just leave you there on your own... this is what i dislike.. but... sigh... I couldnt do anything... as long as I know I have already did my best and done all the things I should/suppose to...

The highlight of the night.. I GOT 6 pounds 30 pence for tips! hurray! ahahaha... althought it's not much, but I am happy.. =) my first tips

And the best thing is, when I am home, I felt so warm and comfy, pamper and listen to me.. =) knowing that i am tired, he will cooked me nice dinner and a back massage.. I felt so loved.. and I really appreciate it so much... *happiness* is the only word that i can describe me.. =) love you baby wee....

Sh*t from Portsmouth

Received a call from my ex housemate the other day telling me we have an outstanding bill which cost 435 pounds for the gas and electricity..gosh.. that's too much man.. well... there are four girls living in the house, me and the other girl left the house earlier than the other girls and they said they will cancel the bill as they still living there for like 2 weeks...

After I have moved to the North, I texted them to remind them for the billing stuffs... no replies... Then I went back to Malaysia for holiday, again I texted them every now and then using my Malaysia's number.. but then again, no one reply... so.. what I was thinking that time was... I assumed that they have already settled everything, and doesnt want any more contact with us as we are not housemate anymore?

I was really surprised when I heard our outstanding balance... Now me and the other girl are trying to get through the 2 girls..so that we can clear off the balance... the problem is... when we call, they dont pick up the phone, facebook message...sms... we have tried every way to contact with them but... sigh.... i dont know why... =( i aint gonna to pay the amount for them..

Dad sent money over on Tuesday, to my surprise, I did not expect him to send over so much for me cause I never asked so.. Called him to let him know that I have received the money, but to my surprise again, I felt so loved when I heard, 'I afraid that you dont have enough money, aint you have to pay for your rental end of the month?' felt so happy and touch though.. I have called to the southern electric yesterday and paid 1/4 of the bill which is my part. I hope the balance will be cleared off by the other housemates so that my name would not appear in the bill ANYMORE! I dont want this thing affect my future application or I get rejected from company because of this matter, this is so not worth .. =(

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anyone out there understand me? --no...

if you think you understand me, try to deliberate this picture, why do i choose this pic? and what's my feeling ?

A very enjoyable day

Woke up at 1pm today, read baby's text which he sent me from the kitchen while I was still sleeping.. Asking me to wake up and he has already cooked us porridge and the black bean mackerel.. Felt sweet, =) after brunch, I went for my shower and baby do the washing, I felt loved *muaks*

After shower, we got ready to hunt for my black skirt AGAIN, we've been hunting the black skirt that I need for work days! Arrived at the Eldon Square and we hunt all the way =) well, some of them are way too over budget.. and mostly all doesnt suits me.. either I look short with the skirt (it has to be knee length) or they dont have my size (in a good way i mean).. =) should i be happy for this? ahaha... Finally, we have made the decision, bought the skirt from Mango.. =) Which i quite love it though.. ehehe.. =) yay!! yay!! I have found the skirt.. and I am so ready to work this coming Friday.. =)

When we walked out from John Lewis, a smell attrac

ted us... SO MUCH... and we both turned our head to our left.. =) yay! to my surprise, AUNTIE ANNE's it is.. =) felt so happy to find it here... off we bought an orignal pretzel, a peanut pretzel and a sesame pretzel... oh yeah! well, not really into sesame though... ehehe.. still left half of it here..who wants it? =D ehehe..

On our way home, baby asked if I fancy for a movie.. and yes.. I am.. =) so we head home to get the Orange..for the 2-4-1 =) after we arrived at home.. baby checked for the showing time.. the show was at 8pm so we decided to fill our stomach before head to the cinema.. i cooked prawn udon and he cooked tom yam udon =) yummmmmmiiiiieeeeee~~

We left home at 7pm.. arrived at the Empire cinema.. and gosh =( there were lots of lots of people queueing .. i wonder what show are they going to watch, yeah..the Twilight... baby and I decided to leave and to not waste the voucher we have bought from Orange, we decided to go to Cineworld which is located at East Boldon.. this is our first time to Cineworld, and I love the cinema a lot.. =) When we arrived at Cineworld, again, there was a longggggggggggggg queue, I hopped off the car and started to queue while baby went to look for parking... (trying our luck to get the tix) and yes! =) we got it... 8.45pm show.... but it's only 7.50pm! no worries, =) we spent our time at the cafe/bar at the upper level, okay... I have to emphasize that, WE ARE SO HEALTHY!! ehehe, baby got himself a hot chocolate, and i got myself a hot tea.. =D oh... something funny happen.. there was a man whom happen to be in front of us.. ordering drinks from the till, well.. after he ordered for 2 bottles of beers, he then asked the bartender whether they have any wine.. 'yes, we served wine, what kind of wine would you like?' (presenting the wine menu to him) she then continue, 'do you prefer the dry or the sweet one?' the bartender asked, and the man replied ,'I want the Good one' *hahaha, i felt funny as he pretend that he knows* and the bartender said, 'the house wine then' =) hehe... the man said yes.. and off he paid.. he was holding a whole lot of cash in his hands..and i mean, ten pounds....twenty pounds notes.. A LOT.. i dont normally see this in UK.. and of course he is not local, obviously.. =) the sum came up with 9 pounds 80 pence if im not mistaken, he gave the bartender/cashier a 10 pounds note, and he asked the bartender to keep the change... pffft.... ? ehehe..

After a little chit chatting with baby... we then off to our movie, yes... we're watching the twilight.. and... we both felt the movie was bored.. =( ZzzzZzzzzz.... sleepy..... the movie took like 2 and a half hours to finish! gosh.. my oh my.. and now we're home.. =) at 12.17am ...

obviously, we're not going to sleep so soon...cause i have to call mum later.. while waiting for the time to pass... imma going to have some beers with baby.. =) i hope i dont get too high when i call mummy later..ahahahah! =)

All in all, I have a very great day with baby =D thanks for a very fulfilling day... muah muah muah..love you loads...

Good day to everyone!

22.11.2009

It's been a long while that I did not update my blog. I always wanted to.. but maybe there is nothing special that really happen... that's why I didnt really post an entry..

Went for 2012 on Wednesday, and I think it's a very good movie, will recommend you all to watch it.. =D and I know it's a little bit late for me to watch The Day after Tomorrow, which I happened to watch it last night with the bf... After I have watched these two movies, I felt so miserable.. I dont know why I will feel so, but the other day, mum told me that China is snowing while they are not suppose to snow in November, and Bf's dad called to ask if we're alright cause he heard the news that there's a flood at the North, and he meant a BIG one..4 bridges went down... Baby then search on the internet... and it says that... it only happens once in 1000 years... hmm... It just freak me out a little... i wonder .. how would the world be in ten years... Or perhaps, the next generation...?

Talk about The Day After Tomorrow, after I have watched Ice Age, I thought when the living things were frozen in seconds = they still have lives.. Okay, influenced by the animation maybe, lol... cause when the ice started to melt, the living things are still alive and move (in the movie of Ice Age).. I only knew, last night... the living things die in seconds... hmm.... =(

I wonder why Malaysia doesnt has the animal right, which I really hope there is.. I felt so sad, when I know there are people whom abandon their pets... when they dont want them anymore... =( i really felt so sad about this.. and guess what..? There are always animal corpse, most probably dogs.. laying on the road side... crushed.. and you cant even see its face, only flesh... fur, covered with flesh and blood.. how do you feel? when you are at a restaurant, watching all the wild dogs looking for food to eat, to survive.. I can see their skeleton. through their skin.. I felt so bad..so bad... when they are sick, nobody is going to take care of them, they only leave themselves to die.. fight till the very last minute.. =(
There are people out there who even eat dog meat.. How does it tastes really? =(
I can't even hit my dog, eventhough he has chewed my new pair of heels which I love so much, and I only wore for.. not more than 5 times.. =(



Oh ya, did I tell you guys that I am going to start my first day of work this coming Friday? =) I hope everything is fine, as this is my first time working in the UK.. I actually not really afraid of working with them, cause this is the main point that I insist to find my placement in UK, I want to learn new things, speak better English.. broaden up my knowledge.. =) the only thing that I am worried about is, it has been a while that I havent served during a function.. I hope everything is going to be fine.. =D *crossed both of my fingers*
Going to buy a black skirt tomorrow, I hope I can find it.. =D hehehe.. well, i mean in a good deal of course... ahahaha...


*silence*


I dont know what makes me silent... but all of sudden, i just ... emo... for a while.. ahaha...



I drove for the very first time in UK... i felt so scare and insecure... I think my eyes' powers are increasing.. I cant focus on the lane, well, i mean at night... =( and the signal is on the left hand side of the sterring.. i got it wrong once..twice, and the bf starting to yell at me..which makes me feel even frustrated... and i hate this feeling... there was... once, when i was in a roundabout, i played the wrong signal.. but luckily there isnt any car... second time, there was a taxi behind me.. and I DIDNT KNOW that, assume that there isnt any car behind (cause it's late night) weird thing is, i didnt hear the horn which the driver horned from the back.. *as my signal was to the left and I wanted to go to the right* i think i nearly got my arse hit.. =D ehehe... and there, started the yelling..WTF.. i keep myself quiet... tears dropping... felt so lost... and finally, the best thing of the short journey was.. we arrived at home, safe and sound...


*silence*

Happy Birthday Baby Matiz

Although it's running cassette... ahahaha... but nevermind, we can still listen to the Radio, listen to the news, and new music..ehehe

Oh ya, and there..our GPS.. =D

Notice the Rim..

Did you spot the difference? =) hehe...

P/S: this blog is suppose to be posted on the 14.11.2009 when we got our car.. but I dont know why I can't upload the pictures, so I have to delay it.. =) still... Happy birthday Baby Matiz, welcome to the new house and new parents...

L.O.V.E

My baby Wee =)

Okay, I have to explain something here.. This picture was taken long time ago, which..none of us has any make-up on! ahahahaha... i think this is a bond.. =D my best friend and my jimui.. =D *LOVE LOVE LOVE*